2013 is coming to a close and I wanted to take a moment to reflect on how our lives have changed and think about what we have learned and how we have grown. This year has been filled with so many ups and downs. Becoming parents has truly changed our lives in so many ways and helped us to be much better versions of ourselves. I have learned that most things in this life that happen to be most worthwhile also require a lot from us and therefore are not always easy.
Watching Isaac grow has been our greatest joy this year. Learning how to balance parenthood, along with work, marriage and our own personal goals has been the best kind of challenge. We have had to simplify every part of our life and prioritize. I am learning there is no such thing as supermom. If you go without sleep for months, work a job, are a new Mom and you don’t ask for help you will eventually become grumpy and exhausted. I have learned that my husband is truly the greatest gift I have been given in this life. When I became a Mom some crazy Mamma bear instinct came out that made me think I was the only one that could take care of my child… but it takes a village… and my husband is my greatest ally.. he is my most important friend on those long tired nights. These simple revelations have grown our marriage in strength and depth that we could have never realized without the joys and challenges this year has brought. I am so thankful for God’s grace in our lives.
Through some less than ideal circumstances I have learned that my plans are silly and God’s lead is secure. I started this year feeling pretty together.. we had a home.. a new car.. the cutest baby of all time.. my parents soon moved to town (which has been a huge blessing!).. Brent found that he was getting a new job! Things were ideal… But life is always changing… Since then we sold our home due to a neighbor shooting into it… coming inches from hitting Isaac who was asleep in his crib and we found out that our family was going to grow again to 4 (when we had not quite expected it).
These items were not in my plan but God has taken care of us every step of the way and in strange ways been answers to prayer. When Isaac was born I knew I wanted to spend less time working and more time with him but had no idea how to practically accomplish that. With Lucas coming soon and after selling our home and living with family we have taken the opportunity to downsize, simplify and make it possible for me to work more part time this next year. God’s plan somehow has seemed to work out better even though it has taken us to places we didn’t expect. Another side effect of these changes is I have had to set aside some of my pride that said my life HAD to look a certain way and trust God to make my life reflect his ways.
As we anticipate the new year my prayer is that the beautiful memories we have made watching Isaac change from our snuggling little babe to a exploring and expressive toddler would be locked in my heart and would not fade. I never want to forget how it felt to nurse my sweet boy, to comfort him when he cried, to cheer him on as he learned how to roll and crawl and now walk! These memories are so special. Babies are such gift but it feels like you blink and you have a toddler and so on… I can’t wait to savor these special baby moments with Lucas in 2014 and see what kind of little guy he grows into. I look forward to watching Isaac continue to learn but I don’t want to look forward too hastily because the here and now is so rich, so full and so blessed. I pray the moments pass slowly so I can take them in fully with a thankful heart. I pray each day I would remember that this is the day the Lord has made and I will rejoice and be glad in it.