I woke up this morning and it dawned on me- life feels so good.
The first three years of this Mom job, were full and fun but most days felt hard, harder than I ever imagined they would be. Most mornings my body screamed to stay in bed a little longer, I physically ached from growing or feeding a little one, my patience felt stretched due to sleepless nights and managing the demands of professional life and life at home. My plate was very full, indeed.
But more than anything I was tired… so very, very tired.
Today I wake up in a new season. One filled with rest… I wake up to slow mornings, filled with coffee, Curious George and forts! Each day we just get to explore together and make memories. Rich memories.
That’s not to say there aren’t challenges, my 3 year old still melts down when I wish he’d rather not and I battle constant worry over exactly how our budget is going to make it from one half of the month to the next. Nonetheless, either the perspective this past season of stretching gave me or maybe it’s just that I can finally sleep each night (most of the time) but this moment feels like a nice long deep breath that I have been waiting for.
I am loving it.
I share this to let you know, if you are a Mom, struggling through some of those tough times, navigating life through a sleepy fog or balancing a demanding career with a demanding child — it gets easier– they will one day sleep– BUT also be reminded making room for rest in your life is so healing. So if where you are at feels like just a bit too much– don’t be afraid to change things.
We changed a lot these past years, mostly because we knew we just couldn’t do it all they way we wanted to leaving our life the way it once was. I’ve changed jobs – a couple of times- we’ve lived a few different places- but more than those physical changes that were necessary to make this more restful, intentional life possible- our hearts have changed. We have a new set of priorities, not guided by bigger and better but by investing in the little hearts that fill our home.
Being intentional is hard. I feel like worry. Doubt. Other things we could be doing are always knocking at the door. Honestly too.. we know this is a season. There will be busy, full, tired seasons again and that’s ok too. But my goal today is to appreciate the gift of now.
I’ve seen many posts about the hard work and economic value of having one spouse mostly at home and I love that this is true. For me though this time is less about economics and more about having fun. I have this moment to be in my kids life is a way that never comes again. I’m finding it to be the most fun I’ve had in a long time and when it’s not fun it’s just worth it.
And one thing this social media driven world has highlighted for me is how fleeting each season is. The bible says there is a time for each emotion under the sun and it’s our best bet is to embrace each season God brings our way.
So embrace life today! If your in a tough space.. you can do this.. and if your life me enjoying this sweet moments, drink them in with a thankful heart.